The word “dance career” may be a bit too extreme… But! I’m super duper, even so overly, excited to share this news with you guys!

I started ballet when I was 5 and was intensively involved in it for 10 years. Then I stopped because I moved to U.S. I went to a dance company near my new house, but the style was too different (I was taught with Russian ballet style), and I just lost interest then.

But my love and passion for ballet never went away. I still could feel my heart beat faster and blood racing through my veins whenever I saw ballerinas dancing so freely. Even when I just saw pictures of people doing ballet, I just couldn’t help myself wanting to go back so bad.

Now that I’m in college, I am no longer confined to the rules or expectations everyone has for me. I am going to find my own self by doing what I want to do and love. And so, this semester, I luckily got a spot at our school’s intermediate ballet class! I’m going to start everything from point zero, and by having the first class today, I just cannot be any happier. It’s true that I’ve been a little bit down lately, but ballet today changed everything.

So, why am I saying this?

Expect a lot of posts. I’m just so excited and thrilled that I am dancing again, which will be reflected right through my tumblr. :)

Also, if you know an online shop/website that sells cute leotards, please let me know! Gotta restart my dancewear collection!!

Love, Sophie xo

I know that I have to keep on doing what I’m supposed to do and that I’m gonna regret later if I don’t. But right now, I really have no idea what is the best for me. Is college really the determination of your character and who you truly are? Depends on what college you go to, you are judged on how smart you are or how rich you are. I don’t want to live like that.

Maybe the “friday 13th” unlucky spirit is getting me. I’m slowly losing trust in my friends, and it’s horrible because now i don’t even know whom my true friends are anymore. I’m slowly dying inside, and I just don’t know what to do. I have no one to vent to, and it’s killing me because i feel like i’m going through all this all by myself…

This is what i always realize: being nice to everyone always works to your advantage. You never know who can help you in any kind of situation, and people tend to help the ones they like, obviously. I always try to set my motto as “Kill them with kindness” because i think that’s the best advice in dealing with people. Sometimes it’s such a hard thing to do because people take advantage of nice people. But I always assure myself that in the end, something greater and better can happen.

Today was tiring and so much fun at the same time! I had to study for my ap chemistry exam during the day, so that was not that exciting… but it was all good because i saw almost all of my old friends at home! It was so fun, talking about our old memories and stuff. We just could not stop talking and laughing. and not to mention the restaurant we went to, it had the best food, and i ate so much blahh. It’s after one right now, and i wish i could stay longer! i’m trying to make some time before i go back to see them all again because it was just so so so much fun. Talking about silly memories is the best! and even better when you’re with the best people, ever. today was a fun fun day that i would not forget!

ps. had the best green tea ice cream today - love life <3

I don’t know what’s different about me now. I can see more clearly and right through people. So many things have happened just as i predicted. But i will never give up on the hope that i can change whatever has been set up previously. i can change my destiny because it’s me who writes my life story.

I feel alone and excluded when i’m alone. i used to love love love having my own time to myself, but lately i’ve been feeling so lonely. i hate this so much. i really need true friends who’d be there for me 24/7…

Today was such an amazing day. junior retreat for the whole school day and ring day after school. Words cannot describe how beautifully our retreat went. Yeah, everyone thought retreat was going to be lame and boring, but it turned out so wonderfully. i learned so much about each every single one of my classmates and that literally every.single.person had unspoken stories and issues in their minds that they were struggling with… it hurts to think that i might have mistreated some people just because they weren’t my close friends. it was life changing, and i’m so glad i went, instead of skipping it. Also, the ring day was just so beautiful. i love dressing up, so getting ready for the ring day was so much fun. doing my hair and make up all that! And our class ring is so pretty and so detailed and adorned - i’m in love with it! Ring day definitely represented our school’s motto: wisdom, beauty, and grace. I loved it so much.

Today was a really good day :)

He left school early and got fitted today. i just can’t help picturing him in a tux hehe :) just three more days! <3

Today was such a good day. Pat came back from Chicago, and i got to come home early because of my ride. He came over and we watched the notebook - perfection. We were all cuddled up, and the cutest thing was that throughout the movie he kissed my head and it was just so… Blahh.

We attempted to make cookies, but that failed… we forgot to put something in the process (still don’t know what), so it turned out nasty hahaha. It was so funny because we kept adding stuff to make it right, but it just became worse and worse… fail.

I met Pat’s friend Nick today, and he literally looks like an abecrombie model. Tall, muscular, brown hair, just the right amount of facial hair aka hot beard, and blue blue eyes. He’s so nice too!

Had a blast with the most amazing people today. Prom is only 4 days away, and i can’t wait!